Friday, September 12, 2014
Sleeping Through History (A Rant)
#Neverforget. I must have seen that 500 times today (or, I guess, yesterday now). I understand the sentiment. But really, did anyone think I was thiiisss close to forgetting? Seriously?
Everyone has their story of where they were on September 11, 2001. People remember it vividly, just like women can recount their childbirths with startling accuracy.
So where was I? Ummmm, I was....asleep.
It was 5:46 AM in Oregon when the first plane hit the first tower. I kept hitting my snooze alarm button, catching snippets of NPR reports about two planes hitting a building. I remember thinking it must have been an air show, and I pictured two old biplanes crashing into the same barn.
Not quite.
By the time Saville called and commanded me to get up and turn on the television, all four planes had gone down. Everyone knew that, but that was about all that anyone knew. It was such a perfect Portland fall day, sunny, warm and blue-skied. On TV, New York, DC and Pennsylvania looked beautiful as well, through the smoke and tears. I watched the video feed over and over again, always surprised that the towers kept collapsing. Like maybe there could be a new ending to the story, if I just watched it often enough.
There wasn't, of course. Again today, the footage rolled, and the towers fell down. The names were read and tears, including mine, were shed.
But after 13 years of war, abrogations of civil liberties and mindless posturing, we're not any safer. The world is not any saner. If anything, technology has made our insecurity more obvious, closer to home. ISIS, ISIL, whatever they'll call themselves next week--they're not just on a TV across the room or in a corner of a bar. They're on our phones, in our pockets and purses, and hey, now even on our wrists.
There's no more distance. We can't pretend it doesn't matter because they're just brown people living "over there." A life is a life, whether it's ours or theirs. And more importantly, we can't pretend that we don't have some responsibility for solving this problem. And possibly for creating it, or at least for watering the seeds sown by others from which their hatred sprouted.
So, #Neverforget? That's the one thing we don't have to worry about. 9/11 is seared into our national soul, as it should be.
But you know what will be forgotten, or at least faded, within a couple years? #Ferguson. #Hobbylobby. #CitizensUnited. And that's a problem. Each of those represents an assault on the most basic founding principles of our nation: Equal rights. Separation of church and state. Government of the people, by the people and for the people.
What is America without these ideals? Our country is so much more than yellow ribbons and flags fluttering in gentle breezes. Our country is--or can be--a beacon of freedom and liberty. Yet we are just sitting by and watching everything we stand for be dismantled--not from outside threats but from within--our courts, our legislators, our police. Ourselves.
Oh, and Antonin Scalia. Can't forget him.
#Neverforget. And never forget what we're defending.
It's time to wake up.
Tuesday, June 10, 2014
Bat Shit Crazy
Highest on the list of things I never knew:
If you have a bat in your house, and it's there for more than a day or so, including while you and your child are sleeping, you need to get a full series of rabies shots.
I kind of gave away the surprise there, but again...who knew? Seriously, who the hell knew?
Our saga starts on Valentine's Day. My first night alone in the house. It's dark. Half the furniture is gone. I'm physically and emotionally drained. I walk into the kitchen and snap on the overhead light.
Off to the left, I sense, rather than see, a flutter. Moth, I think, and grab a soda. Whatever. I leave the room. A couple hours later, same thing. Only this time, it has to be a bird. It's too big to be a moth. But it's way too quiet to be a bird. Again, I shrug. Bats aren't even on my radar.
My friend calls to see how my Love Day is going. I tell her there's a creature in my kitchen A long-time Astorian, she immediately knows it's a bat. Over my protests, she sends her husband down the hill to help. He arrives armed with a badminton racquet. Because of course.
We do a room-to-room sweep with no success. I open all the windows (brrr), turn on all the inside lights and turn off all the outdoor lights. I assume it's flown out a window, and I go to sleep.
The next night, J is home with me. It's hard to remember a Saturday night when she and I didn't watch our "Frozen" DVD, but we couldn't have, since it wasn't released until March. Oh, wait, I remember! We sold Girl Scout cookies for four hours in Cannon Beach amid a miserable storm. The things I
And now it's in the upstairs hallway, and I finally discover the sole benefit of living in a 111-year-old Victorian crack house: Doors. Lots and lots of doors. I am able to seal the bat within the staircase and the foyer. I do the lights again, then open the front door and hide behind it. Just as I am about to go to give up and hope for the best, the bat flies out the door and I slam it hard. J and I go to sleep.
That's where the story should have ended. Instead, a couple of days later I recount the tale to my sister. Who knows someone who happens to be a doctor who knows someone who had a bat and a sleeping child in their house at the same time and (suspenseful music here) they had to get rabies shots. The danger is that bats are sometimes rabid, and you may not be aware that they have bitten you. Seriously--who knew?
I make a doctor's appointment for J and myself the next day. Our regular doctor is not in the clinic, so we get a substitute. I am convinced she will mark me down as having Munchhausen Syndrome, both by proxy and straight up. But she takes our situation very seriously. She appears more worried about me than about J, who, it seems, did not spend the night in the bat house. She leaves us in the examination room and goes to consult the County Health Department.
J takes this opportunity to correct the history I have given the doctor. She tells me that she saw the bat in the TV room, "the night we got the 'My Little Pony' book at Costco. That was three or four nights before Valentine's Day. "Why didn't you tell me then that you saw a bat?" J shrugs. "I don't know," she replies. "I thought it was either a crow or your black underwear flying across the room."
For the record:
1. Underwear does not routinely fly across rooms in our house.
2. I breastfed that child. For more than the recommended year. Partly to make her smarter.
The doctor returns, and I update her on our history. She reports that the risk that we have rabies is low, but that rabies is always fatal, so it's a big risk to take. She sends us home, promising that she will call us when she gets more information.
I get two calls from a nurse at the health department in Portland. She says she has spoken to the State Vet and he thinks we're okay. I am so tickled at the idea that Oregon has a state vet that I don't listen fully. I wonder if it's real job or a sinecure like poet laureate. Actually, I have no idea what a poet laureate does. But that was an example my fifth-grade teacher gave when we had "sinecure" as a vocabulary word. Eventually, I tune back in to the nurse. She is just saying that she will speak with the State Vet (!) again and get back to us.
She doesn't, but at her request our County Health Director does. He tells me a long story about being in the Peace Corps, and one of his fellow volunteers died after being bitten by a rabid dog. The upshot of his story is that the Peace Corps nurse made everyone get prophylactic rabies vaccines. He says he couldn't make a recommendation as to what we do, but that he would get the shots if he were in our shoes.
Then he tells me that the only place in the state to get the shots is in Portland. I'm still not sure if that's true, but it is definitely the closest place. He has called OHSU and they have recommended that we come in the next day.
So we do. At OHSU, the only place they administer shots is in the ER. Fortunately, they let both J and me go to Doernbecher, the pediatric OR, where the wait time is measured in minutes, not hours. The ER doctor did not give us a choice: If there is a bat in your living quarters and you were not awake for the entire time of its visit, you get the rabies shots. Period.
On the upside, things are much improved in the rabies vaccine field. No more giant needles in your stomach!
Depending on your weight, you start out with three (J) or more (me) shots. J had hers in her thighs and arm, but I get some in my ass, to her endless amusement. One is the vaccine and the others are the immunoglobulin. (Maybe?) Then you get to drive to Portland three more times in the next two weeks to get one shot each time. And no, they will not ship them to your city for convenient inoculation. And yes, you do get to make an ER co-pay for each of your four visits. Fortunately, Blue Cross paid. And they paid A LOT.
Side note: The pharmacy sends up the vaccine, and the nurse mixes it and injects it into your arm (or other places, the first day). The solution is bright magenta. One of the nurses asked if I were anti-vaccine. I said no, but she said the way this stuff looked could turn anyone away from the science.
J was not happy. But she was amazing. Brave little bug, and I was so, so proud of her.
The whole thing still seems strange to me. I will always wonder if I did the right thing. We were probably overtreated. One doctor we saw at OHSU agreed that it was defensive medicine, but that (as noted) since rabies is inevitably fatal, you just can't take the chance. What really bothers me, though, is what do other people do? My employer provides amazing health insurance. The whole thing cost me eight ER co-pays and two co-pays from our primary-care clinic. Total: $270 out of pocket, but of course covered by my flexible spending account. So really maybe 2/3 of that. I recently was working with someone whose ER co-pay is $500. That would have been $4,000 PLUS his insurance would have paid only a portion of the rest. And let's not even think about people with no insurance. I am so very grateful, and so very sad, all at the same time.
In fact, none of this really makes sense. We live in a rural county. Bats are ubiquitous. Surely they must enter people's homes all the time. But I have never heard of anyone (in real life; I'm not counting the internet) who has gone through this. Are they just not asking their doctors? Are they receiving different advice? Is there really no risk? Or do they have to balance the cost and the risk and ultimately decide they just can't afford the care?
So, people of Clatsop County, if you have a bat in your house, call J and me! We are now immune--at most we would need a booster if we got bitten. We like to do that Girl Scout good turn daily.
And, oh how I wish i had thought of this:
PSA time: Turns out, you are NOT supposed to shoo the bat out of your house. You are supposed to trap it so its brain can be tested for rabies. If it's negative, you won't need to get shots. I am sorry, but if any of these doctors or public-health professionals thought I was going to trap the bat, well, they're just bat shit crazy.
Thursday, January 16, 2014
Holidaze
A short, illustrated list of things I learned this Christmas season.
1. If you're looking for a gift for your Playmobil family, J says that "Baby Jesus is always appropriate."
2. Santa is scary.
3. But less so with a good friend.
4. You should take time tosmell the roses lick the snow.
5. Zoo Lights is even more awesome when you're rocking the leopard print.
6. Unicorns, tigers and ponies look amazing on my bedroom floor. And my playing with her makes J over-the-moon happy. Doing it more often is my New Year's resolution.
Here's to a great 2014!
2. Santa is scary.
3. But less so with a good friend.
4. You should take time to
5. Zoo Lights is even more awesome when you're rocking the leopard print.
6. Unicorns, tigers and ponies look amazing on my bedroom floor. And my playing with her makes J over-the-moon happy. Doing it more often is my New Year's resolution.
Here's to a great 2014!
Tuesday, January 14, 2014
Monster Hive
I actually wrote but didn't post this about three months ago, if the dates aren't making sense.
J started kindergarten last month. I'm pretty sure you read about it in the Times? From day one, she LOVED it. Mrs. S is her hero/goddess/best teacher ever. In a fit of pique, J told me that she loved Mrs. S more than she loved me. I didn't believe her, so it didn't upset me, but I don't remember worshiping my teachers the way J worships Mrs. S. Mrs. S is pretty terrific but still...wow.
I walk her to school in the morning since we live too close for the bus. It's been good for both of us. She gets fresh air and my undivided attention. I get the sweaty walk uphill toward home after I drop her off. Every day we notice things that we've driven past a million times and never paid attention to. Like...one of our neighbors has a pink hose! Another has a "fossil" of a leaf printed on a stepping stone. And one has eight cats, with their own dollhouse on the porch. These are big deals when you're
At the end of her second week of kindergarten, J announced that she could read the word "the." After G and I made appropriately impressed comments, she said, "Not bad for only eight days of school, huh?" She's since added "my," "and," "was," "can" and a few more I'm forgetting. She also has to write her name with a capital J and the rest of the letters lowercase. This, she tells me, is "kindergarten style," and she does it very reluctantly. It's not easy, she wants us to know, but she's also never bored at school. So there's that.
We've also begun soccer and ballet, with much less enthusiastic results. J just won't really participate. She's playing soccer because G really believes in team sports. I do, too, though perhaps not quite as vigorously, or at such a young age. She likes practice, but not the games. While the other kids are earnestly kicking the ball into the wrong goal, she kind of floats along at her own pace. This drives G bonkers and embarrasses him. I am frustrated, not by her lackadaisical-ness but by her refusal to even allow herself to have fun. The other parents murmur their sympathy, but I can feel their relief that their kid isn't like that.
J's learning ballet because she saw the local production of "The Velveteen Rabbit" last year and really wanted to be in this year's ballet. Every year the teacher choreographs her own ballet and each student has a part. They perform at a real theater, and all the kids at all the schools attend. So I signed her up. The teacher is very disciplined, and J is...whatever the opposite of disciplined is. She says she loves it, but it's hard to tell from the effort she puts in. We're trying, and it's getting better, but...
How much to push? She's only five. And the soccer was our choice, not hers. I don't want to force her to do things she doesn't like, but I hate to let her quit. Soccer's almost over, but there's still next fall to consider. G is going to make her play something. There doesn't seem to be a Hang Upside Down from the Jungle Gym League, or a My Little Ponies Take a Bath Team, or anything else she actually enjoys playing. And the odds of her being very good at any sport are genetically limited. She does have a new game she plays at recess called "Monster Hive." She's unshakably sure that she doesn't mean "Monster High." The object of the game is "to turn the monsters into bees and then you are afraid of them because there are bees but there is no such thing as monsters."
Well, duh,
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